Uggg.. tucking my middle in tonight was torture. Pure torture. She of course was crying (although trying to hold it together) because I am leaving tomorrow AM. Counting the days, counting the nights.. til our return... asking how and when she can talk to me... pure sadness. Ugg, felt like someone stuck a dagger straight into my heart. And the worst part is that I remember exactly how she feels. I specificially recall feeling the exact same way when my mom had to go on a business trip when I was probably around her age. It was terrible. So the way she is feeling coupled with the fact that I have had a giant pit in my stomach about leaving them the entire day is making me question whether or not I am making the right decision to leave.
Of course my hubby and I deserve a few nights away, together, as a couple, not playing the parenting role.. but just because we are away doesn't mean that we can get being parents out of our minds. To those of you who think I am being silly and do not understand where I am coming from, please click the X on the top right hand corner of your screen and close this page. I do not care how many trips others have taken away from their kids or how many times a month my hubby travels away from our family. None of that matters to me. The fact that I am leaving my kids is just heartwrenching for me, right now. And since my darling spouse felt it necessary to leave our will and other documents on his office desk, I feel like I want to vomit. Hoping the Xanax will calm that tomorrow AM.
To end on a high note I wanted to share some fun tidbits from my baby girl.
1. Yesterday, when she saw the snow and my oldest two in their snowsuits, she shrieked "I need my babing (bathing) suit too mommy". Um, bathing suit + snow + 30 degree weather = not such a great idea.
2. I got my nails done today for our trip to a flip flop in Dec location and just took my socks off. My baby girl looked down and my toes and said "Bootiful (beautiful) mommy, that's like pink".
Love her.. she is really so funny. And I don't think she even tries to be, she just is. She has the ability to make me laugh consistently throughout the day. Gosh, I cannot even imagine our family without her in it. What a blessing she is.. well, all of them really. Ugg.. ok, feeling this blog taking a turn for the sappy again, so I will end now.
Prob won't blog in the AM. Figuring I might not be in the best of spirits. I am sure to come back with many fun stories to share.
Wish me luck and I'll see you in 2011. Oh, and thanks for reading. I love that you care about my nonsense.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tales of a snow filled day
I think it is safe to say that children, or at least mine, have absolutely no adversion to the cold. Adding up all the different times they decided to play in the snow, they were outside in 30 degree temps with snow and wind blowing for about 2 + hours. Snowman made- sledding done- snowball fight had- etcc...
what a fun fun day! for the kids... I however have been freezing my tucus off and been eating myself out of the house!!! Why Why Why do I have to eat when I am stuck at home?????????
Once my hubby gave me the okay to drive, which was not until after noon (which I was mad about because I wanted to be at the mall at 8 AM... remember, my black Friday was today).. however, I managed to scoot out during naptime for a few hours and that is when my fun began. Have I mentioned that I love the mall? Especially at Holiday time!! Oh the red sale signs.... love love love! Got some great buys.. mostly for the kids, as usual, but bought myself some treats too. Hadn't purchased myself sweatpants since I was prego.. definitely needed a few new pairs.
Anyhow, took the kiddos over to my moms for a bit, since she refuses to drive in this weather (not that I blame her). And we went out for our fav dinner.. SUSHI. I think my son ate the most.. he really loves that stuff. I am proud. Always nice to have Sunday night dinner with the fam, especially my mom. We try to make that a ritual, but sometimes our busy schedules get in the away (hers and my kids). I think we should make a New Year's resolution to reinstate Sunday night dinners.. and I would like to mandate a bi-weekly rotation between Sushi and Chinese. All in favor????
what a fun fun day! for the kids... I however have been freezing my tucus off and been eating myself out of the house!!! Why Why Why do I have to eat when I am stuck at home?????????
Once my hubby gave me the okay to drive, which was not until after noon (which I was mad about because I wanted to be at the mall at 8 AM... remember, my black Friday was today).. however, I managed to scoot out during naptime for a few hours and that is when my fun began. Have I mentioned that I love the mall? Especially at Holiday time!! Oh the red sale signs.... love love love! Got some great buys.. mostly for the kids, as usual, but bought myself some treats too. Hadn't purchased myself sweatpants since I was prego.. definitely needed a few new pairs.
Anyhow, took the kiddos over to my moms for a bit, since she refuses to drive in this weather (not that I blame her). And we went out for our fav dinner.. SUSHI. I think my son ate the most.. he really loves that stuff. I am proud. Always nice to have Sunday night dinner with the fam, especially my mom. We try to make that a ritual, but sometimes our busy schedules get in the away (hers and my kids). I think we should make a New Year's resolution to reinstate Sunday night dinners.. and I would like to mandate a bi-weekly rotation between Sushi and Chinese. All in favor????
Tales of White
It is 6:15. My mid daughter is dressed and ready to go! Purple snowsuit-check. Mittens-check. Boots-check. Only thing we are waiting for is the sun to rise! Yay for snow.. and lots of it. Will report later...
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Tales of December 25th
Well, today was a quiet, boring stay in your PJ til 3PM day.. and I LOVED every minute of it!! Actually think the kids and hubby did too. They were all really great today, depsite being trapped inside. Sometimes it is nice to be forced to spend a day alone with the fam, with no get away in sight. Played Kinect with the kids- danced and laughed. Watched Hannah Montana the movie with girls and cuddled on the couch. We only got dressed to grab a quick dinner with some friends and then straight back into jammies. I did however get a ton accomplished. Two loads of laundry, dishes clean and put away, decorations down and our home is officially holiday free!!.. for now... at least until Valentines Day arrives.
Sidenote: I am obsessed with decorating for holidays (in addition to throwing parties). I just love how festive it looks and how warm and inviting the house becomes.
Sidenote #2: I am also obsessed with taking down the decorations as quickly as possible. While I love love love the way they look, I just get kinda tired of all the clutter it becomes. Our house is decorated from Oct. 1- Dec. 25th. (usually after the New Year, but we decided to speed it up this go around).
So, no snow. Yet. Though it has finally started to rain. Lets see if it gets cold enough tonight for some snow to fall. We enjoyed hot cocoa and smores anyway... couldn't let it go to waste ya know.
That is it from here. Not much happened today to share. Just a relaxing day with the fam. Kudos to the kids for their great behavior... well, until the last hour or so. Guess that means its time for bed!
Good night my friends!
Sidenote: I am obsessed with decorating for holidays (in addition to throwing parties). I just love how festive it looks and how warm and inviting the house becomes.
Sidenote #2: I am also obsessed with taking down the decorations as quickly as possible. While I love love love the way they look, I just get kinda tired of all the clutter it becomes. Our house is decorated from Oct. 1- Dec. 25th. (usually after the New Year, but we decided to speed it up this go around).
So, no snow. Yet. Though it has finally started to rain. Lets see if it gets cold enough tonight for some snow to fall. We enjoyed hot cocoa and smores anyway... couldn't let it go to waste ya know.
That is it from here. Not much happened today to share. Just a relaxing day with the fam. Kudos to the kids for their great behavior... well, until the last hour or so. Guess that means its time for bed!
Good night my friends!
Tales of Snow????
So, that is the big question.. still. will it snow or not?? I am prepared!! Bought hot cocoa and smores ingredients! Bring it on!!!!!
Had a great afternoon/evening celebrating good friends and great family! Kids sprinkled reindeer food on the lawn last night and made a wish for Santa to come! And we have a very happy house this AM! They couldn't wait to come downstairs. He drank all the milk and most of the yummy cookies we left for him. The amazement and excitment on their faces and in their voices is what this holiday is truly about. Period. Nothing else. No religion, nothing serious. Just fun and happiness. It is so heartwarming to live thru your kids. I know they will only "believe" for a few more years (at least the oldest), but I am cherishing it. So sad the the innocence will be lost one day.
Also sad that my bro left. Short visit made even shorter by our immaturity. Oh well, there is always next time. A friend of mine told me that we were due for a fight, as I do not think he and I have fought in at least 10 years. Kids always love the visits from Uncle D too!
Off to discover what this day has in store for us. Can't wait til tomorrow. South Park mall at 8 AM here I come.. wanna join?? I missed black Friday since we were in Disney, so decided that tomorrow will be my black Friday.. it probably has its own nickname.. but I do not know what it is.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...... PLEASE!
Had a great afternoon/evening celebrating good friends and great family! Kids sprinkled reindeer food on the lawn last night and made a wish for Santa to come! And we have a very happy house this AM! They couldn't wait to come downstairs. He drank all the milk and most of the yummy cookies we left for him. The amazement and excitment on their faces and in their voices is what this holiday is truly about. Period. Nothing else. No religion, nothing serious. Just fun and happiness. It is so heartwarming to live thru your kids. I know they will only "believe" for a few more years (at least the oldest), but I am cherishing it. So sad the the innocence will be lost one day.
Also sad that my bro left. Short visit made even shorter by our immaturity. Oh well, there is always next time. A friend of mine told me that we were due for a fight, as I do not think he and I have fought in at least 10 years. Kids always love the visits from Uncle D too!
Off to discover what this day has in store for us. Can't wait til tomorrow. South Park mall at 8 AM here I come.. wanna join?? I missed black Friday since we were in Disney, so decided that tomorrow will be my black Friday.. it probably has its own nickname.. but I do not know what it is.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...... PLEASE!
Friday, December 24, 2010
Tales of slow and painful
OMG.. went to see that new Reese Witherspoon movie last night.
Sidenote: I love Reese Witherspoon. In my next life, I would really like to come back as her.
Anyway, I love her movies. But holy crap.. that was the worst movie I have seen in a really long time. Like a super I can't even remember seeing a bad movie like that long time ago. People were literally walking out. It was over 2 hours and moved sooooooooooooooooooooo slowlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and was just down right bad. I was so shocked, and rather disappointed too. I thought she takes great pride in her work and chooses her scripts carefully, but that must have been a momentary lapse in judgement for her, becuz it sucked. What a waste of two hours and an even bigger waste of two hours of loss of sleep for me. Must move on.
So, I hear it is supposed to snow tomorrow! Oh how my kids will just love it. I too think it would be pretty darn cool to have a white Christmas. However, if it snows, this FL girl will be locked up in her house all day. So, unless you live within walking distance to my house and/or want to come to me, you will likely not see me tomorrow if it snows.
Remember how I told you how excited I was to have my brother come into town? Well, we had a knock down drag out yesterday that only siblings have. Cursing, mean-ness, a full blown fight. However, in true sibling style, we "kissed and made up" within hours. So nice to love unconditionally. But, becuz I was in such a crappy mood over it, I fell down the stairs in our house and killed my back. Nearly killed myself I think. My hubby was witness to the whole thing and it scared the you know what out of him. But, in case you are interested, I am fine. Just stiff this AM and bruised. Other than that, its business as usual in this house. Tot in my bed, watching Mickey. Waiting for big kids to begin our day.
Wishing all my Christmas celebrating peeps a very Merry one! Can't wait to celebrate tonight with one of our favorite family friends.
Dear weatherman,
Pleae be right about the snow tomorrow. That would be so stinking cool for so many reasons.
1. My brother will likely get snowed in for another day!
2. My kids will be uber excited.
3. I do think a white Christmas would bring so much fun and energy into the day.
4. Becuz if you actually got the weather correct for once I will be super impressed.
5. I would love nothing more than smores and hot cocoa tomorrow.
Love,
me
Sidenote: I love Reese Witherspoon. In my next life, I would really like to come back as her.
Anyway, I love her movies. But holy crap.. that was the worst movie I have seen in a really long time. Like a super I can't even remember seeing a bad movie like that long time ago. People were literally walking out. It was over 2 hours and moved sooooooooooooooooooooo slowlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and was just down right bad. I was so shocked, and rather disappointed too. I thought she takes great pride in her work and chooses her scripts carefully, but that must have been a momentary lapse in judgement for her, becuz it sucked. What a waste of two hours and an even bigger waste of two hours of loss of sleep for me. Must move on.
So, I hear it is supposed to snow tomorrow! Oh how my kids will just love it. I too think it would be pretty darn cool to have a white Christmas. However, if it snows, this FL girl will be locked up in her house all day. So, unless you live within walking distance to my house and/or want to come to me, you will likely not see me tomorrow if it snows.
Remember how I told you how excited I was to have my brother come into town? Well, we had a knock down drag out yesterday that only siblings have. Cursing, mean-ness, a full blown fight. However, in true sibling style, we "kissed and made up" within hours. So nice to love unconditionally. But, becuz I was in such a crappy mood over it, I fell down the stairs in our house and killed my back. Nearly killed myself I think. My hubby was witness to the whole thing and it scared the you know what out of him. But, in case you are interested, I am fine. Just stiff this AM and bruised. Other than that, its business as usual in this house. Tot in my bed, watching Mickey. Waiting for big kids to begin our day.
Wishing all my Christmas celebrating peeps a very Merry one! Can't wait to celebrate tonight with one of our favorite family friends.
Dear weatherman,
Pleae be right about the snow tomorrow. That would be so stinking cool for so many reasons.
1. My brother will likely get snowed in for another day!
2. My kids will be uber excited.
3. I do think a white Christmas would bring so much fun and energy into the day.
4. Becuz if you actually got the weather correct for once I will be super impressed.
5. I would love nothing more than smores and hot cocoa tomorrow.
Love,
me
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tales of a Jinx part deux
All I want for Christmas is SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is that really too much to ask for?? It's a really good thing that we can no longer physically produce offspring, becuz some nights I feel like we might as well have another baby since we are up all night anyhow.
2:22- Enter mid child: I had a bad dream... ugg.. seriously?? How is it possible that I actually cursed this poor child by simply mentioning how great of a sleeper she is. Back to bed.
2:40- Enter mid child: I still can't sleep. Back to bed.
3:30- the last time I looked on the clock to see how long I had actually been awake since I couldn't go back to sleep either.
5:46- Baby girl up. Brought into bed. Back to sleep.
6:05- Enter eldest- I am up. Go back to room and play quietly and we will get you when your sister gets up. STOMPS OUT. LOUDLY.
6:29- Enter eldest again- (what a great listener he is turning out to be, sigh). I am done playing. Whining. Wakes up little sister. Mid sister up. And, the start of a bright new day.
And you wonder why I was proud of myself for actually going out the other night? I am seriously running so low on fumes these days that I think I am about to run out of reserves. Thank goodness for kid free vaca next week. NEED SOME SERIOUS SLEEP.
2:22- Enter mid child: I had a bad dream... ugg.. seriously?? How is it possible that I actually cursed this poor child by simply mentioning how great of a sleeper she is. Back to bed.
2:40- Enter mid child: I still can't sleep. Back to bed.
3:30- the last time I looked on the clock to see how long I had actually been awake since I couldn't go back to sleep either.
5:46- Baby girl up. Brought into bed. Back to sleep.
6:05- Enter eldest- I am up. Go back to room and play quietly and we will get you when your sister gets up. STOMPS OUT. LOUDLY.
6:29- Enter eldest again- (what a great listener he is turning out to be, sigh). I am done playing. Whining. Wakes up little sister. Mid sister up. And, the start of a bright new day.
And you wonder why I was proud of myself for actually going out the other night? I am seriously running so low on fumes these days that I think I am about to run out of reserves. Thank goodness for kid free vaca next week. NEED SOME SERIOUS SLEEP.
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