I think my middle had her period yesterday. Obviously not literally, being that she is only 5. I guess emotionally. Sometimes she has these days were she is just blah. And weepy. Don't get me wrong- I get blah and weepy but I am not 5. What in the universe does she have to be blah and weepy about?? And she is not a talker. I mean, she talks all day long about nonsensical (is that a word) things, but it she is very tight lipped when she is upset about something. I hate it. I wish she would talk to me, hubby, us about her feelings, but I really think she doesn't understand why she feels sad sometimes. And it is usually a quick ditty and it is over. But last night at dinner, her eyes were so teary. I know she was tired from a long day at school and being shuffled off to cheerleading, but it breaks my heart to see her big beautiful brown eyes have so much weight behind them. After a few minutes of her saying, nothing is wrong-i am fine- she started crying about not playing with her friends on the playground today at school. I asked her about her fav friend in class, she said she was playing with another little girl. Then I mentioned another friend, got same response. So I asked her why she didn't join them, to which she responded a 3rd childs name and not wanting to do what they were playing. Now I am not sure if she was making it up to appease me and/or to get me to stop bugging her, or if she really played by herself for 30 whole minutes for the first time ever. Either way, this is how I feel about that.
1. I am SOOOOOOOOO not looking forward to when she is 12.
2. I LOVE being by myself. Alone in my quiet thoughts.. even just for 30 minutes. Who's with me? I need to ingrain this into her little being. There is something quite refreshing about being able to "regroup" a bit.
3. I am seriously in deep ____ when her real period comes.